Where to Begin About My Mom

Where to even begin about my mom...I am the 4th child down in a family of 8 children...5 are from the same father and there other 3 are from my step-dad.

Mom as far as I can remember was this person who told us what to do. She was more a dictator than a mom. My dad hit my mom so she left him, then she married my step-dad who, yes you guessed it he hit her. Growing up was rough I remember a lot of yelling and screaming, sneaking out of windows to run to the neighbors to call the police. I remember alot of crying...when my mom getting right back with him the next day.

I married at 16 to get out of the house. Something I regretted not because I don't love my husband who I have been married to for 14 years but because I left my little brothers and my baby sister alone. I should have stuck it out for their sake right? I don't know I ask myself that all the time. My mom now denies that any of this every happened. She says she did everything for us. Could she really be that crazy to think that she was a good mom? Can all four of us sisters be making this horrible childhood up? I remember him telling me he would knock my head off with this bat he was holding if I made a move all the while my mom screaming at me to go call the police. How could someone threaten your child like that and you just forget about it? Do I need help or does my mom? I have told her numerous times to seek help. I told my sister to forget about what she did to us and go on with her life, so why can't I let it go? Its easier said than done. Parent's are the most important part of your life as a child, so if your parents don't treat you right remember to tell yourself I will be okay...this pain can't last forever right?