My World Up-turned

At times the ideas in my head are shooting around,
Act as a firework being let off.
they go in so many different ways I cant keep up.
I try to talk but no one understands
I don't even realize how fast I'm speaking.
I feel like I could do anything
be anyone I could ever want to be.
Maybe one day I'll fly.
I am beautiful
I am confident
I am a wonder person everyone loves.
But then the feeling fades into something else.
Why can't people just leave me alone?
Why is everyone looking at me?
I hate myself and everyone around me.
I am fat and ugly
if you look you may lose your sight.
So I curl in a corner
I don't want to move.
All I want is for this feeling to end.
And it does end,
I swear it does.
Once again I'm jumping about
happy and wonderful
smiling and flirtatious
nothing will stand in my way
Then I sit and think with my head in my hands,
"Damn it, damn these emotions to hell"

by Krissy Pepi