Ice in My Heart Fire in My Veins

I never thought my worst nightmare would come alive but it did....

On March 11, 2000, my sister and I decided to stay over at a friends house. My dad was drinking and we told him we loved him gave him a hug and told him to not do anything stupid. The whole while he was just staring at the floor and would only respond by nodding his head. As we were walking to our friends house my stomach turned upside down because I knew dad was going to do something really stupid. The next morning my sister was crying but I didnt know why. My mom and aunt showed up and we left. I asked mom what was going on and she said "Dad committed suicide." I sat back for a while i was only eight at the time so i really didnt understand. I hesitated.. "What is suicide?" I got the answer i never wanted to hear.

The funeral was really bad..my sister was screaming and crying and pushing everybody away that tried to comfort her..then we had to say our goodbyes and it was over....